Something happens for women as soon as they see those two lines on a pregnancy test. You become selfless. Your body becomes a sanctuary holding and growing the most precious gift you have ever been in charge of. A gift that you have to protect and keep safe for the rest of your life. For some moms, having a child finally gives them the strength and courage to remove the rose colored glasses from their eyes and see clearly for the first time what their quality of life would be like with a child in the picture. They are also able to clearly see what their child’s quality of life would be. After she saw those two lines on the pregnancy test, Kylee started to become aware of her reality living inside an abusive marriage.
Kylee knew it was time to walk away. She was tired of the empty bottles, the slammed doors, and the angry outbursts. After her son was born she immediately felt like she was alone. She didn’t have the love and support of her spouse. When her husband moved out of the house, she was left alone with a brand new baby and working through depression and anxiety. She was struggling to accept that her marriage was over. She didn’t know what the future would hold for her and her child. But just like any mama bear, she was ready to fight for her child’s well-being.
After the divorce process started, Kylee began to pick up the broken pieces of her life. She moved to a new city, found a full-time job, bought a house, and found a preschool for her son to learn and grow. She agreed to shared custody and her son sees his father every other weekend.
Throughout this journey that she has been on, the one thing that has remained constant is her love for her son. Since birth, breastfeeding has always been a comfort for both of them. It also remained one of the only consistent routines they have with each other.
“Everyday I am focused on healing myself and being the best mother I can be. I know the future is bright but I am letting each day run its course.” –Kylee
****If you or someone you know is in an abusive relationship and needs help reach out to family or friends for direction and support. If those are not available to you, you can call the domestic abuse hotline at 800-799-7233. ****
This is the tightrope that Kylee walks.
What tightrope do you walk?