Growing up, birth control helped clear my skin up a lot. After I had my son, my face completely changed. I felt like my face belonged in the freshman section of a high school yearbook. I was sleep deprived and trying to figure out how to be a mom. I was stressed out because I couldn’t figure out why my son was having reoccurring fevers. My hormones were all over the place. I had bumps all along my forehead and my jawline. No amount of makeup could cover or hide it.
I accepted it. That this would be my life as a mom. A hormonal zitty mess. It drove me crazy! The anxiety I had about my acne probably gave me more acne. I used to spend hours in the mirror picking at my face with toilet paper which only made it worse. I developed dermatitis around my mouth and nose. My skin was flaking and red. The dermatologist gave me topical antibiotics to help me clear up my face. I tried multiple skin care systems and nothing worked. Even after cutting out dairy for months, my face was still struggling.
There is nothing worse than being a stay at home mom and not wanting to go out in public or socialize with others because you don’t want the world to see your face.
As my son got older, hats became my best friend. I would put on a baseball hat to hide my face and cover my insecurities. When my husband came home to kiss me, I didn’t feel like I deserved to be kissed.
I found this skin care line called The Ordinary. Their products are clean and not tested on animals. Most companies charge upwards of $75+ for skin care lines. The Ordinary’s products can usually be found for under $15. I started using their squalene cleanser. I would apply it to my face while it was dry and wash it off in the shower. The smooth and silky texture literally melted on my fingertips. After my shower, I use a dropper filled with their Niacinamide 10% + Zinc 1%. With the combination of these two products being used twice a day, my face cleared up within a few weeks.
Mom life has changed so much since I started using The Ordinary. My face is still healing. I have scars. But I don’t feel like I have to hide my face with a hat anymore. I can make eye contact with people in the grocery story when I’m checking out. I feel beautiful without make up on. The Ordinary gave me my confidence back.
This is my tightrope.
What tightrope do you walk?